Death and Lil' Wayne

Took a lot of 'medication' for my 'allergies' last night. Might have taken enough to be in danger of over dosing. Had a strange heart beat and was shaking. But I made it through the night. I 'could have died' last night.

Trying to decide what 'matters'. Got into an argument about Lil' Wayne last night.

Worst 'musician' ever or 'genius'?


Some say he's 'brainwashing/poisoning the nation'. But he must be doing something 'right' to be so successful right? I want to say that he is doing both.

Kinda envious of Lil' Wayne for 'working the system' so he can 'smoke weed everyday' and 'not give a fuck'. Who cares right? Wonder what Lil' Wayne is thinking about. Wonder if he is 'depressed' for what he represents to some people ('manipulator'/'slime' of the world) or if he is happy because he is 'living the high life'.

People complain that music today isn't what it used to be (the Beatles + Pink Floyd). 'Artists' like Lil' Wayne have made music much more confusing. What is 'good' music anymore?
Who is he? How did he get to where he is? Why is he doing it?


Is Lil' Wayne 'saying something' with his music? Does he have 'good intentions'? Is he 'misunderstood'? Can we learn anything from this 'abomination'/'genius'?

Is there something wrong with 'liking' something that others/yourself may see as music that isn't 'good'? I don't think it 'matters'. Who are we to judge what it 'good' or 'bad'? If you 'make it' someone thought you were 'good' or 'bad' enough for attention. What makes one person's opinion better than another person's. I think you reach a point of 'fame' or 'making it' where all opinions of you only perpetuate your 'fame' or 'making it' even more. I'm a bit envious of Lil' Wayne.

Should Lil' Wayne be a 'role model' for us all? Should I try to 'be like him' too? Are there things that we can 'over look' to justify our actions to 'make it'?


Wonder if Lil' Wayne would more phenomenal if there wasn't anything about him that could be considered 'bad'. Would he be 'good' by default? Or is it the struggle between 'good' and 'bad' that draws in his audience?

Just trying to figure out what 'matters'. I 'could have died' last night.

What was first & Being 'New'

I'm trying to decide whether or not 'original ideas' exist or if ideas are just some 'compilation' and/or 'remixed' version of previous ideas. I've heard people argue for either side; but both seem just as plausible. Has everything been done already? Is there no way to be 'original' any more?

If ideas aren't necessarily dependent on previous ones, where is the line drawn to show the difference between 'original ideas' and 'un-original ideas'?

Wonder if I am influenced by anyone. Is someone getting ideas from me? Where did it all begin?


Hard to 'try to be original' if it's not possible. Think it might be important to be 'original' because of the attention people give to 'new ideas'. Hard to know what it means to be 'new' if there's nothing 'original'.

DJs seem to be making it by somehow though. They make something 'new' that is 'un-original' and get appraise for it. Makes you think that maybe 'originality' isn't so much what gets attention as much as something 'new'.

Attractive People?

Got into one of the conversations the other day. The ones where you're asked which of two celebrities is more attractive. I don't think I'm very good at these sort of things. Don't really know any of the big names as far as actors go. I think me and the rest of the guys mutually agreed that Natalie Portman was attractive. I don't really remember what we girls agreed upon.

Wondering whether or not it's healthy to have an idea of the 'perfect girl'/'perfect guy'. Having the idea might give you a better sense of 'what you want' and of yourself. But I think it would also probably make all other people fail/come up short by comparison for you. Trying to decide what's more important to me. You know, having less of a sense of your personal preference or to be continually stalking someone that you've only really seen over the internet or on TV. Sounds a like a loose-loose situation to me.

Starting Blogging

Thought I'd finally start writing this blog. Cus I wanted one because 'everyone has one these days' so I thought I'd give it a shot myself.

Can't really think about what to write about (lie). I sitting here listening to my music (crystal castles and daft punk 'duh') and its late but I wanted to start writing this blog.

This is the beginning of everything. This is where it starts.
This blog is directed at apathy because I feel that it is something was can all relate to. This blog is meant to be a better representation of myself on the internet/a better way for people to stalk me on it. A place to vent & a place to write.

This is a blog about breaking down walls. This is a blog about there not being walls. This is a blog that anyone should be able to relate to.

This Blog begins now.